Why I Pressed Pause on Blogging

*blows dust off keyboard*

Hello old friends.

I don’t think I really intended to take a break from blogging and to be honest I am not really sure when/why I stopped writing and being so diligent about this whole ordeal. I was so inspired when I first started Page Nine because it was something new and exciting. It felt separate from my last blog because I promised myself “this time will be different”. By that I meant I wasn’t going to fall into this cycle of writing and posting because I HAD to but writing and post because I wanted to. But with most of my attempts at “social media-ing consistently” I found myself falling into a routine.

The routine I’m referring to is that I was writing and sharing FLUFF! Reviews of products and very thought out, well spoken, blogs about my home and my dog. Although I literally could talk about all those things forever and ever; it didn’t feel like me. I think it’s really hard to broadcast yourself to people in a real way online. I’ve seen a few people that I really think have mastered it, but overall we tend to either forget our authenticity or lose sight of it while trying to remain consistent.

When I started Page Nine the first thing I came up with was “finding a balance between Instagram perfection and IRL boredom.” Which I literally haven’t been doing…at all. I think I have that nice Instagram perfection piece down, but the IRL boredom isn’t really shining through. It’s intimidating sharing things that are… well… boring. Or things that don’t seem as meaningful as those Instagram moments. I even see full time Instagrammers struggle with this. In reality, my favorite things are those seemingly “boring” moments that people share. I think everyday mediocrity makes us feel more connected as humans.

I feel like it’s so hard to get across how I am when I’m writing so I’ve tried recording several vlogs and have either:

1. Forgot I started vlogging 

or 

2. Felt I wasn’t getting my thoughts together enough, but usually it was the first one.

I’ve been thinking recently I should start a podcast because… everyone has a podcast! It really is such a trendy thing but I so enjoy podcasts because I can listen to them while im driving. I also feel like I articulate best when im speaking to my friends and that a podcast with guests that are my friends could be really interesting..? Maybe?

I don’t have a really great way to end this except for maybe saying we should all try to cultivate a little more authenticity.