I am unapologetically one of those people that waits for the new year. I might has well have new year new me tattooed on my forehead. Only recently have I started taking goal setting seriously and, probably much to the annoyance of the people around me, I need an intention for all aspects of my life.
Last year I set a lot of goals and most of them didn’t make the cut. They were lofty and I didn’t have a clear path to accomplish them. But, I will say I did get stronger and I’m proud of that! I remember saying I wanted to be able to “lift the box”. This metaphorical box that I would normally need someone else to lift for me – I wanted to be able to lift and carry whatever I needed. And here we are.
I learned a lot about me this year. On December 31st 2018 I thought my life was going in a much different direction and about a week into January everything took a hard left. I adapted and adjusted to a different outlook. I don’t think I became selfish but I really focused on being aware of me, in all aspects. A path to a little more self discovery, if you will.
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It’s hard to capture the mood I want in words interpret from this picture as you will.
-I will continue working out consistently.
-I will cook more.
–I will start taking photos again. More photos like I used to. More fun and creative. More stuff like this.
-I will network more
–I will start seeing a therapist again. I saw one when I was a teenager when I was going through some stuff but now after this year I think it’s important to go see one when things are good too. The Don’t Blame Me podcast has really normalized therapy for me. I suggest it.
-I will go to New York.
–I will visit my out of state friends. You know who you are.
–I will write more. In a journal. Online. In notes to my friends. On sticky notes around the office.
–I will do things on weeknights. I think I’m still stuck in the school night mindset I grew up with and recently I’ve had to have the “you’re a grown ass women” conversation with myself.
-I will foster relationships that matter.
This one may seem weird. I know. But in 2019 I spent a lot of time alone. The year started as a burning pile of shit over a relationship that ended and that set me off on a mindset of not needing people. I shot myself into independence. It didn’t mean I didn’t talk to anyone but it wasn’t a priority. This year it’s a priority. Working with people. Making plans. Dating. Networking. I need to learn how to want to be surrounded by people again.
So here’s to the new and the next. Happy New Year.